Dear Lior,
There are so many attractive things we look for in a person but I still believe that their ambition and drive to be what they want to be is easily the most beautiful of them all. When I was a little bit younger, I was never the motivated kind. I felt that being able to share whatever life I could have with someone I love was already enough. I am happy to realise how pathetic that was this early on.
I am not disregarding the people who might have that same kind of dream but I reckon that it is a waste of so much potential to keep your burning fire on a freezing chamber. You know what changed the entire game?
You.
I realised that I could not live a life of mediocracies. I cannot just settle with being good enough. I have to be someone you can look up to and I do not like the idea of you going around telling everyone that you're more proud of someone else than of your own mother.
Having you set my priorities straight. You know how we often have these visions of ourselves a couple of years from now? Mine changed dramatically. I see myself ten years from now in a really nice, big house, driving a yellow car, coming home to you. I honestly do not mind being alone. However, by now, I think you know that already. It is absolutely dreamy, even ideal, to think that your father and I will share the same nice, big house together and coming home to each other but if that doesn't happen then it isn't the end of the world. I love him, very much but I will not ruin myself for anyone anymore. Because ruining myself means ruining you.
I guess all I really wanted to tell you is that before anything else, think of yourself. Make plans alone. Dream alone. So that you do not hook your future on someone else's promises and tomorrows because there is no certainty in this world. But if there is one thing I could promise you for all eternity is that you will always have me.
Last but definitely not the least - always remember that if you need to believe in something... Believe in yourself.
Your fan since day one,
Mama
