How is it possible that time has flown that it has been three years of wonderful relationship together? I swear it was just yesterday I was having contractions and now I have you, the most little bundle of light.
Papa and I promised that for as long as we can, we will celebrate your party. This year, it was held at Mc Donald's in The Fort which is also easily one of the nicest Mcdo in the area. It was nothing extraordinary but it was beautiful; seeing lanterns and balloons and your name hung in the tarpaulin. I wish you were old enough to appreciate it already. The people you would definitely love to spend the best time were there. It was hilarious how the staff thought it was an adult party because there were hardly any children around. I always tease your papa that his birthday always comes three months late but I have no problem with that because his friends are as much as mine and I hope that you know and recognize them now that you're reading this yourself.
Lior, I have never loved anyone this much and I hope you know that. I know I am completely flawed and I cannot tell you I was made for motherhood because I do not know about that yet but if there is one thing in this world that I am beyond sure is the fact that no one could ever love you as much as I do. You are my whole world and everything I do is for you.
Know what, honey, I was raised in a home where we put so much weight in birthdays that once yours come, you have absolute power the whole day through. And I want to practice this with you as well which is why when you ripped half of your souvenirs, or cried halfway through, or threw terrible tantrums, it was fine because I want you to look forward in growing up and growing old enough that the thought of it won't make you shiver. I know that you might not understand it yet but one day you will and regardless of how old you are, or how fragile, or how strong, you are always going to be my baby. And I will forever be your Mama.
Every party, the hosts ask me what my wish for you would be and beyond all the comical remarks (as I always reply with: I wish Lior would be the future president of the Republic of the Philippines and laughter will be summoned) ultimately, my wish for you is that you will always always always be happy because that is all that matters. You could have all the money in the world and still be so unhappy. You could be surrounded with family and still be so unhappy. You could have everything you could ever wish for and still be so unhappy. There are a thousand different sad reasons but I hope that you will never have one because I will always be here for you and whatever worry you're carrying over your shoulders is nothing I couldn't carry alone.
I love you so much, Matthan.
Happiest third birthday.
Forever and beyond,
Mama
